“People get old. And things change, and situations change. I want this moment right now, this day. My feelings for you, the way you look right now, the way I look at you and my feelings for you. I just want this to last forever you know. ”

“And it will. No matter what we’ve always had this and had each other. and nothing can ever change that. But, i just want you to know, you’ll always have someone here for you. Always. I’m never gonna leave you. I’m never gonna leave you. I love you.”

That’s the dialouge from the Greenday song.

It lines reality up next to dreams. How come we can’t keep beautiful things beautiful? Nothing gold stays. You gotta chase it. Maybe that’s what nirvana would be like, to reach a certain climax and be able to stay there, and float in the moments of utter happiness and bliss. But that would never happen in our lives, would it. We have to fight for everything. Maybe fight makes it seem too glorified. We have to put in effort to keep our lives neat and tidy, so that happiness can find a place to put itself.

I say, the best we can do with golden moments is to savour it. My method is to by remembering. The smell of the moment, the visuals, the little tight warm hug I feel in my heart. And then I move on, and hope that this memory will help bring more golden moments to come. And when I’m bored or unhappy, I try to take them and place them on my lap in my cuddly couch in my head, and smile at them. Sort of keeps you going, making the effort.

I know it sounds like I’m a dreamer. I used to think so, because dreaming never got me anywhere. But today, I know that my golden heart hugs are not going to stop. Even when things get tough, I know I have someone who is stronger than me, standing by me.

This is for you, bei. I wish you all the happiness. With me. Muahaha..